..From the kitchen”
It isn’t easy to fight instincts, when we have already had plans to do better than painting the house in the usual [cream color I guess] and having a chicken farm at the backyard (or front yard, does it really matter?). But as we reach for places where sunlight hardly penetrates, then, the instincts start fighting instincts, leading to a chicken-egg situation.
I see more rebellious persons than me only in books and movies. From utter disgust to submission to nihilism to some-meaning to does-it-matter-after all, I have traveled a bit, but I don’t really see myself crossing a river on a boat, not that I can’t earn it, but it just seems uninteresting, to put it plainly. But, say if we decide to experience a virtual drive on the boat, what are the chances do u think, that we will find lots of other boats atomic-number-82ed by people similar to us (in at least being in the river). So what does it mean? That we should waive at them and ask for a helping hand? Would you?
Not every rebellion will break the mind-boundary and find its conformance. Doesn’t every rebel want “its” to become “it’s”? If not, than why to waste others time? If somebody wants a “soul fulfillment shit”, why to involve others in the shit? But that’s not the point. But assuming we do want “it’s”, I just realized, that it is happening, since we started to measure time I guess. I came to know that rebellion doesn’t need to question authorities (always), may be, if we suddenly realize through rationality that our basic aim was always internally directed, than rebellion just about directing the spiraling instincts in a better way.
We spent too much time on resolving differences and calling this or that the better way (not that better doesn’t exist), but why not give honesty and passion a chance? Why not be in full unison and still retain all the differences? I may be speculating, but the idea sounds fantastic at least in the head.
If you are highly rebellious but not rich, you will get more frustrated, chances are that you will end up doing more harm to yourself than doing good. If you are rich or well off, and still rebellious, you are probably just dissatisfied with certain things you don’t posses, and everybody is in a way dissatisfied for some such thing. Few redirect the “rebellious energies” and do well for themselves; they reach towards conformation, start accepting themselves, still write or speak a bit about the world, but not in the same anti-establishment ways like before. “I really have no right to ask people about my optimizations”—u see? That is what I meant in the sentence before!
Rebellion has ambition, real rebels are ambitious. I guess every system needs them; and yes we do have them, but lot of them are wasted, just because “they” don’t believe “them” and “them” think “they” are better. Why aren’t enough people who have chance to give rebellion a chance don’t face it, and get away by calling it just ambition, protectionism is one thing, aren’t there enough men out there in the words of Nietzsche. Well, truth is there are, but they are outweighed by conformity. There is always a danger that rebellion gets and identity, it happens most of the time, one develops a sense of individuality, even though the first-intention was some greater-good.
Everybody wants to be accepted. At the same time, nobody wants to be a sellout. Everybody imagines a perfect world; wants to compromise as less as possible, but then everybody is slowly sucked-into by situations (what a weakness), everybody rationalizes compromises—that seems to be the way to go in fact if you don’t know what to do without that, in fact I am doing that it seems to me sometimes.
But why are afraid, because we did not succeed? Why not give the future a better chance by saying –“Hey, go for it. Don’t worry about what can happen. Nothing will happen, you have nothing to lose, and I will take care”. It isn’t easy to do that, to do that one has to assume responsibility, one has to cash the conformities, otherwise what are they good for? Yeah, I know oversimplification.
Do u agree with what I have said so far? World needs a change, isn’t it? I guess we all have to start a new story; we must come to terms with each other and agree on few things to work with each other, isn’t it? Just get the fuck away please—Yeah, u see, still…..
“To the bathroom…
